If I stay, it's because I need to. [ "want" is a bit too close to almost opening himself up and looking inside of himself. bellamy doesn't know what he wants. if it's not looking after octavia or something about his sister, he's always at a crossroads, unsure of where it is he wants to go. if he relies on "need", then it's easier. bellamy does what he needs to do — remain slightly isolated on the ark, become an asshole who can easily distance himself from those around him so if he up and leaves one day, he can. he bears what happened inside of the mountain because he needs to. ]
[ but raven's free from feeling any sort of guilt over him staying, if he does. bellamy rarely makes a choice based on what someone else wants from him, especially if they're not o. even though it factors into his decision-making, complicating it a little more than simplifying it, it matters. he just doesn't know what to do with it. ]
[ where he'd opt to tease her, bellamy says, quite soberly so it doesn't lose any of its meaning, ] It doesn't hurt anybody knowing you might want me to stick around.
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[ but raven's free from feeling any sort of guilt over him staying, if he does. bellamy rarely makes a choice based on what someone else wants from him, especially if they're not o. even though it factors into his decision-making, complicating it a little more than simplifying it, it matters. he just doesn't know what to do with it. ]
[ where he'd opt to tease her, bellamy says, quite soberly so it doesn't lose any of its meaning, ] It doesn't hurt anybody knowing you might want me to stick around.