[ that's an easy answer, and it's one he looks at her when he answers. ]
Yeah.
[ the mountain had almost killed him and he'd survived twice over. he'd been stranded with monroe and sterling after the grounders had attacked and the camp had been incinerated, and he'd survived tristan. sometimes bellamy has a death wish, but he oftentimes believes he's invincible. ]
I need to go back to Octavia. [ he doesn't say for, as he often would've. everything has always been for his sister. he doesn't quite know how to live a life where she's not at the forefront of his mind. eudio's begun to teach him how, but he still feels as though a vital part of him is missing, and he's more scared and overwhelmed than he ever wants to let on to anyone and himself that he likes it here, even if it's without his sister. it'd be better if she was here, and that's what he focuses on. while he's taken great care to finally listen to her and let her breathe, he hasn't abandoned her; he has no plans to do so any time in the future. ]
[ but raven's heard it before, and bellamy's said and thought it over and over until it's practically an expected mantra for him. but the expectation he's returning home for his sister's sake isn't the reason why he believes he has to go back, even if it sees him dead. he thinks to tack on, ] For me. I have to go back and make sure she's okay.
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Yeah.
[ the mountain had almost killed him and he'd survived twice over. he'd been stranded with monroe and sterling after the grounders had attacked and the camp had been incinerated, and he'd survived tristan. sometimes bellamy has a death wish, but he oftentimes believes he's invincible. ]
I need to go back to Octavia. [ he doesn't say for, as he often would've. everything has always been for his sister. he doesn't quite know how to live a life where she's not at the forefront of his mind. eudio's begun to teach him how, but he still feels as though a vital part of him is missing, and he's more scared and overwhelmed than he ever wants to let on to anyone and himself that he likes it here, even if it's without his sister. it'd be better if she was here, and that's what he focuses on. while he's taken great care to finally listen to her and let her breathe, he hasn't abandoned her; he has no plans to do so any time in the future. ]
[ but raven's heard it before, and bellamy's said and thought it over and over until it's practically an expected mantra for him. but the expectation he's returning home for his sister's sake isn't the reason why he believes he has to go back, even if it sees him dead. he thinks to tack on, ] For me. I have to go back and make sure she's okay.